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My name is Manny, I started drinking at a very young age. I was seven years old when I tried my first beer, and ten years old when I smoked my first joint. I never wanted to become who I became, but I don’t think that’s anyone plan at first. When I was thirteen I snorted my first line, and I think that started a vicious cycle. My first years were great I loved to drug and then drink, I could go on for ever with cocaine nothing could stop me. I was able to hold a job and managed to keep going to school at first I was just doing this to cope with all my problems in my life. I was sexually abused as a child and beaten constantly I hated my child hood, I was out in the streets at a very young age cause the streets were better then my home. I had to start selling drugs to eat. At thirteen years old it’s kinda of hard to find a job at fifteen I did start working full time and continued to go to school, but I was already addicted to alcohol and loved that cocaine, don’t get me wrong I never wanted to be a bum, I was always very intelligent graduated high school with a 3.93 GPA, and I did it halve drunk and high. The sad part of my story is that I could have been a different person, if I was just given a chance, everything I accomplished I had to take by force. They wanted my parents to enroll me in school i had to have a friends mom help, I needed permission to work full time so I forged my parents signature. My worst nightmare happened with the sexual abuse, as a kid I didn’t understand as an adult I was ashamed. I couldn’t understand why someone would do this to another human being, he tore me so bad one time I needed 28 stitches in my back side, man o man what a life. i was happier with the beatings. I drank for the most part, cause drinking made me not care. Drinking made me forget, I never wanted to ever remember those days ever again. Then I drank for so many years that eventually became an alcoholic. I drank and drank and drank myself to almost death, this last time I ended up at the hospital in an alcoholic coma, after I flat lined. I have a lot more to say but for now i wanted to share this, there is a way out. I’ve been sober for not to long but long enough to tell people there is a way out. We don’t have to live like that anymore. My first step was sobering up at a hospital cause withdraws can kill a long term drinker as soon as you sober up, you have to be honest with your self and it gets hard especially in my case just overcoming my past sober, meant be facing what I had spent lots of years avoiding, but I did it for the first time in my life I wanted to stay sober more than anything in my life. I guess it was me flat lining and actually speaking to an angle that told me that it wasn’t my time and the dying drunk was not Gods plan for me. I understand now, I need to use every tool I have acquired through out the years of drinking to help my fellow humans. I’ve accomplished this by getting closer to my higher power which I choose to call God, threw him I do volunteer work and try to help at substance abuse centers. I now live waning to see tomorrow, God has giving me a second chance and I’m here to help. To be continued……………


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